Over and Over again

Hey guys,
So I don't promise a post everyday I just felt led to put this on here. It's one of the older pieces I have written which means a lot to me because it describes my relationship with God. It might be a bit confusing but I hope He give you the grace to understand it. Enjoy.

I want to fall in love with you
over and over again
I want those times when we first met
the times when our love was young
It was like a budding flower; so gentle and refreshingly beautiful
we couldn't go five minutes without each other
I want a rewind in time, a fast forward to those moments when;
I remained constantly in an atmosphere saturated with your presence
those periods I knocked on your doors and your presence came down with such tangibility;
I could smell your perfume

I need those nights when we would stay up talking about everything
I learned to make your favorite food as I knelt and lifted my hands in praise and;
you, you held me in your arms as I learned your laws and meditated on your words
I was so anxious to share every aspect of my life with you,
I told you of my aspirations and dreams, my favorite everything and the things that ticked me off
you accepted my imperfections and I came to love them just as I love you.
we whispered words of love to each other all night long till I fell asleep with you watching over me.


I want to fall in love with you
over and over again
I want those mornings I would sing and dance in your presence
smiling came naturally as I went about my day you had already given me the secrets
I miss the dings in my spirit alerting me that you wanted to pour out your heart
I miss those nights you would hold me as I looked hideous while fighting bouts of depression
when all I did was cry and tear out my hair

when we would commune, a joining, the coming together of spirits
with me emptying myself and you pouring your spirit into me
when we would communicate in secret
you would play movies in front of me, meant only for my eyes
revealing the secret and hidden things, things that are humanly impossible
the coming together of spirits
the communicating in holy tongues, the speaking of prophecies, the seeing of visions, the dreaming of dreams
the coming together of spirits.

I want to fall in love with you
over and over again
I'm not saying I don't love you right now
I'm saying that I want to know that awestruck feeling I felt deep in my bones when I first met you
the chilling of my spine, the goosebumps on my skin, the standing of the hairs on my neck, the change in the atmosphere
I want to know that feeling I felt when I first saw your glory descend in all beauty and majesty
when I saw the mighty works of your hand

I'm saying that I want that I've got to have that feeling
I want that loud thumping of the heart, the inability to look away, the butterflies in my tummy;
as the first utterance of the words I love you escaped my lips
I'm saying I want to remain in a constant loop of the honeymoon phase
where we keep on discovering each other
I want to fall in love with you
I want to fall in love so deeply that the possibility of unloving is nonexistent
I want to be so in tune with you that people begin to smell you on me
I want to fall in love with you
over and over again.